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The First Trimester for Miscarriage Mommas

In Family, Infertility and Miscarriage by Madison MayberryLeave a Comment

I’m currently writing this just shy of six weeks pregnant with our sixth pregnancy. Writing that this is our sixth pregnancy just caused me to pause and make sure that’s correct. I’ve been pregnant six times now, and I have to babies playing in the next room, three in heaven, and one whose fate is to be determined. I don’t write that to sound morbid, in fact I’m actually, in this current moment, really hopeful for this pregnancy but not … Read More

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Losing Them, Loving You

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Photo: Jessica Bonestroo Photography I’ve been thinking all month about what (if anything) to write this month, seeing that it’s Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. Sometimes, in the thick of parenting two little kids, our losses seem to fade into the background, a sad and heartbreaking circumstance that paved the way for both our girls. Sometimes, when cleaning up messes and disciplining toddlers and trying to grocery shop with both and maintain my sanity it’s hard to think about … Read More

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Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

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October is my birthday month, and it has always been one of my favorite months of the year. It’s also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, a fact I was blissfully unaware of until a few years ago when I was struggling with my own feelings of loss and grief over miscarrying our first child the month prior. I’ve been so grateful to have connected with so many of you over the years who have resonated with my posts about … Read More

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29.

In Family, Fashion, Food & Recipes, Infertility and Miscarriage by Madison Mayberry16 Comments

Today I turn 29. I can’t believe that when this blog started, I was just 22 years old, a senior in college, without any background in blogging or the internet world. I wanted to post recipes of food that I loved. I was interning at a lifestyle magazine and working in their food section and inspired by this huge, brand-new world that was suddenly opened to me. Back then I had unlimited amounts of time and few commitments other than … Read More

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miscarriage, fertility and the value of life

In Family, Infertility and Miscarriage by Madison Mayberry18 Comments

This post has been mulling around in my head for weeks. I feel as if the writing on this blog has been full of fluff and low on substance, lacking the meaty content that comes in waves depending on the season of life I’m in. Truth be told, seasons of shallow writing usually mean one of two things for me: things are going really, really well or things are going very poorly. Though this time, it’s a little bit of … Read More

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I’m ready for 2015.

In Infertility and Miscarriage, Pregnancy by Madison Mayberry18 Comments

I probably could have alternately titled this post, “Thank heavens 2014 is in the books! I’m glad to see it go.” But I’ve decided that it’s best to look forward to the year ahead rather than focus on the year that is now (almost) behind us. I’ve mentioned this before but last January I felt God saying to me that 2014 was going to be the year of waiting. I had no idea what he meant by that but I’ll … Read More

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What I wish I would have known about the first trimester…

In Infertility and Miscarriage, Pregnancy by Madison Mayberry9 Comments

I spent a lot of time reading (okay, obsessing and worrying) about what was normal vs. not normal during the first trimester. After two miscarriages I was extremely worried that my symptoms weren’t normal or our baby wasn’t healthy. Understandable, yes, but healthy? Absolutely not! Since a lot of my symptoms weren’t textbook “normal” I thought perhaps some other moms-to-be could use a little reminder that what the books and websites say don’t necessarily hold true all the time. They’re … Read More

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Getting and Staying Pregnant: What We Did Differently

In Infertility and Miscarriage, Uncategorized by Madison Mayberry18 Comments

I realize that I’ve posted quite a bit about pregnancy-related topics lately. Hang with me if pregnancy posts drive you crazy, because I have some great recipes coming to the site later this month! Since opening up about our difficult journey to baby, my inbox has been flooded with questions about doctors and medicines and acupuncture. I’m always happy to answer each question individually via e-mail, but I wanted to put it all into a single post as another resource for … Read More

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Choosing Not to Fear (11 Week Update!)

In Infertility and Miscarriage, Pregnancy by Madison Mayberry23 Comments

*First note of business: I’m terribly sorry for the lack of recipe posts lately. Just when I thought I was starting to feel better, I got hit with another round of morning sickness that has prevented me from making almost anything worth blogging about in the kitchen. I’ve been on a steady diet of sandwiches, smoothies and cereal, but I’m looking forward to *hopefully* feeling better soon so I can start cooking with more regularity!  We are, with this little … Read More

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Today I’m Thankful

In Infertility and Miscarriage, Pregnancy by Madison Mayberry15 Comments

This week we went for a follow-up appointment at my OBGYN office for, you guessed it, yet another ultrasound. I’m thankful for so many opportunities to see our little one, but I’ll admit that the ultrasounds make me nervous and jittery and filled with all kinds of anxiety leading up to the appointment. We were blessed, and maybe still a little surprised, to see another image of a healthy little baby, who is starting to look more and more like … Read More

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Praise Be to God

In Infertility and Miscarriage by Madison Mayberry46 Comments

Last night was  a restless night of sleep. As much as I wanted to go into a deep sleep, I kept waking up, tossing and turning, wondering what the next morning would hold. Would we see our little baby on the ultrasound, healthy and heart beating? Or would I be sent to surgery immediately after and spending the rest of the day recovering on the couch, piecing together a broken heart? I want to be clear that whatever the outcome … Read More

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When We’re Weary

In Infertility and Miscarriage, Uncategorized by Madison Mayberry10 Comments

First, thank you all so much for your prayers and support. Although things don’t look good, knowing we are being lifted up in prayer by so many people, including friends we’ve never met in person, absolutely humbles me. Sometimes thinking about it brings me to tears and I feel so undeserving of those prayers. Would I respond in kind if I were on the other side? I hope that I do when given the opportunity. My tendency is to tie things … Read More